After a long time i m here..but not with a gud mood :(.. Hmmm..lets started with a short story where i was from last few months..As my TCOM module got over..many more modules were waiting for us..and one by one all hurdles went off.. :) i thought it was very bad phase of my life coz there i was alone..no friends..only studies..but today i can say that time was much better than this one.. I knw this is human nature ;)
And after all i m human being.. :) so,obviously i m thinking in the same way..
But seriously..this phase is toughest phase of my life..coz its nt look as difficult as i thought..but its a big challenge for me..Till now,i have some one to fight but these days i m fighting with myself only..I m working in a company..that was my biggest dream to work some where..but i m not feeling gud :(
WHY???
i dont knw...i have no work at all..sometimes i felt so irritated. Why i m here.. :( i try to console myself but i cant. My condition is like i cant do it and i cant leave it.. I knw ,i hav to give some more time to myself..and i hav to wait n watch..but as i previously mentioned in my blogs that there is always two side of our personality..one side is good one..who always tell us to keep patience and dont b get angry and all..and second one who always push us into destructive side..
And my second part is more powerful these days..that push me in destructive phase..i m enable to console myself..sometimes very bad ideas came in my mind.. :( But any how i hav to continue with this job..
Now,i understood..no work sitution is more bad than lots of work...
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Last blog for this module...
This is my last blog as an assignment..I started this blog writing as an assignment that was given to us for TCOM evaluation and we had to write two blogs every week. This is the last week of this module and our module will ended on 18 October.
I am an introvert person who speak very less and hardly express my feeling in front of other. Specially who are not familiar to me. So, this activity was quite difficult for me in the starting days. Because,sometimes i didn't understand how to convey my thoughts in form of text..So,sometimes i took long time to do this task. Every week Sunday was the last day to complete the task as the evaluation did on the Monday..so,i submitted most of my blogs on Sunday as Sunday was deadline and i had no other option.. :)
As i was new in this such type of activity.So,i wrote most of the blogs about my thoughts and about my activities of that week.I wrote about my trips outside of the institute,about my weekends..and i was far away from my home so,i also wrote something about my family,about those festival on which i missed my family and about my weekend activities. Sometimes this task seemed very interesting when i was in the mood of writing something and sometimes it was really tedious when i was not in the mood of writing anything.
Blog writing is just like a sea-saw for me sometimes i was up and enjoyed it and sometimes i was down and really hated it. But,today as i am writing my last blog..i am not in the mood of leave this activity because sometimes when i didn't understand about my feeling,i started writing and then i felt good. And in future i will continue this..Now,i want to write more about many things that i want to express and at that time no one was there to listen me. This gave me a feeling like a friend who listen carefully what u said and what ever u want to convey...This is the good activity and i think everyone should continue this even after the evaluation will be over..
I am an introvert person who speak very less and hardly express my feeling in front of other. Specially who are not familiar to me. So, this activity was quite difficult for me in the starting days. Because,sometimes i didn't understand how to convey my thoughts in form of text..So,sometimes i took long time to do this task. Every week Sunday was the last day to complete the task as the evaluation did on the Monday..so,i submitted most of my blogs on Sunday as Sunday was deadline and i had no other option.. :)
As i was new in this such type of activity.So,i wrote most of the blogs about my thoughts and about my activities of that week.I wrote about my trips outside of the institute,about my weekends..and i was far away from my home so,i also wrote something about my family,about those festival on which i missed my family and about my weekend activities. Sometimes this task seemed very interesting when i was in the mood of writing something and sometimes it was really tedious when i was not in the mood of writing anything.
Blog writing is just like a sea-saw for me sometimes i was up and enjoyed it and sometimes i was down and really hated it. But,today as i am writing my last blog..i am not in the mood of leave this activity because sometimes when i didn't understand about my feeling,i started writing and then i felt good. And in future i will continue this..Now,i want to write more about many things that i want to express and at that time no one was there to listen me. This gave me a feeling like a friend who listen carefully what u said and what ever u want to convey...This is the good activity and i think everyone should continue this even after the evaluation will be over..
TCOM sessions...
Technical Communication, one of the main subject of this module. As the name implies it is all about How to present your thoughts, How to present yourself in front of others and about communication skills, both written as well as verbal communication. As my communication skills are very bad.So, sometimes i didn't like it and sometimes i like it.
I would like to share something about my first TCOM class. When the class started my friend cracked some joke and i was laughing. When i was laughing, Govind sir saw me and as a punishment, Govind sir called me as a first candidate and asked for an introduction.So, journey of my TCOM classes started like this. Govind sir assigned us an assignment to write two blogs every week which is still going on. And this blog is also a part of that assignment.
In the second class Sawani ma'am took charge of TCOM classes as the Govind sir switched over his job and left CDAC. Now,Sawani ma'am was responsible for coordinating this subject.One more interesting factor was also associated with these TCOM classes was that we had to wear formals during TCOM classes.so,I had to wear suits that was a tedious job for me. In the second class we had TCOM first evaluation and in that evaluation we had to give our introduction. And How could it was possible that TCOM session was held and nothing happened with me.At the time of evaluation, i was very nervous and when i gave my introduction, my pronunciation for the word "project" was wrong.Maam pointed out my mistake and try to correct me but i didn't know what was happening with me??I tried a lot but at that time i couldn't speak right..
Now, one by one TCOM lectures were proceed.Again,after 2-3 lectures,history repeated itself and one more incident happened with me along with my friends. At that day, we were late and reached class five minute late. Ma'am scolded us as ma'am instructed earlier to everyone to come class on time. This is first time when we got late but Mistake is mistake..So,we all were punished and didn't allow to attend the class. We learnt from our mistake and try to be on time in next classes.
During TCOM session,We learnt lots of things like How to give technical presentations, How to discussed in group,How to write technical mails,How to face interviews and most importantly in the last TCOM session How to face failures and How to overcome these failures in order to achieve success...So,this is all about my TCOM journey...
I would like to share something about my first TCOM class. When the class started my friend cracked some joke and i was laughing. When i was laughing, Govind sir saw me and as a punishment, Govind sir called me as a first candidate and asked for an introduction.So, journey of my TCOM classes started like this. Govind sir assigned us an assignment to write two blogs every week which is still going on. And this blog is also a part of that assignment.
In the second class Sawani ma'am took charge of TCOM classes as the Govind sir switched over his job and left CDAC. Now,Sawani ma'am was responsible for coordinating this subject.One more interesting factor was also associated with these TCOM classes was that we had to wear formals during TCOM classes.so,I had to wear suits that was a tedious job for me. In the second class we had TCOM first evaluation and in that evaluation we had to give our introduction. And How could it was possible that TCOM session was held and nothing happened with me.At the time of evaluation, i was very nervous and when i gave my introduction, my pronunciation for the word "project" was wrong.Maam pointed out my mistake and try to correct me but i didn't know what was happening with me??I tried a lot but at that time i couldn't speak right..
Now, one by one TCOM lectures were proceed.Again,after 2-3 lectures,history repeated itself and one more incident happened with me along with my friends. At that day, we were late and reached class five minute late. Ma'am scolded us as ma'am instructed earlier to everyone to come class on time. This is first time when we got late but Mistake is mistake..So,we all were punished and didn't allow to attend the class. We learnt from our mistake and try to be on time in next classes.
During TCOM session,We learnt lots of things like How to give technical presentations, How to discussed in group,How to write technical mails,How to face interviews and most importantly in the last TCOM session How to face failures and How to overcome these failures in order to achieve success...So,this is all about my TCOM journey...
We met...
I was sleeping and suddenly my cell started ringing..i was not in the mood to pick up call but finally i attended that call..my brother was calling me that was 1 October's evening. He came back India after 2 months from Netherlands.we decided to meet with each other on 2 October as we didn't see each other since a long time.
Next morning i woke up late as usual and then got ready to go. Then i asked to all my friends to go with me.But all my friends were busy and they had some work to do..Then finally one of my friend was ready to go with me. So, me and my friend vaibhav went to meet my brother. We decided to meet at Forum mall. Vaibhav and i went to main road.There we took a bus to Forum mall. After reaching Forum, i called bhai that we reached here and where are you?? My brother was still in his hotel room..Why?? because he also woke up late :) We went into mall and then went to food court and there we were waiting for bhai and then after half an hour bhai reached there and then i met to my brother after a long time.
I introduced bhai with my friend and then we ate some snacks there.As i met my brother after a long time so, how it could be possible that i left my bro so easily. I did lots of shopping there. First we went into Adidas shop there i purchased 1 t-shirt then i purchased 2 more t-shirts.Then we decided to go at my cousin's home to meet her. So, we took lunch in a restaurant. There we took north Indian food after such a long time. Then we went to my cousin's home.
When we reached there we found her in the sleeping mode :) now,it was obvious after all she is our sister. We talked and teased each other then My di made tea for us and we enjoyed tea along with watching T.V...We talked a lot and at that time we decided that we will take dinner together and bhai will made aloo ghobhi for us. So, bhai and di both started preparation for dinner and me and vaibhav were watching T.V. as we were the younger than them.. :) Bhai made aloo gobhai and di made aloo tamater..After the combined effort they finally prepared aloo gobhi and aloo tamater..now it was my and vaibhav's turn to do something. So,we both were start doing something.. :) we prepared paratha and after half an hour by combined effort,finally we both prepared parathas. Then,we ate together and i couldn't explain that dinner was too delicious..and i ate such delicious food after a long time..This was all about my day. And day was really good and i enjoyed a lot. Then we both returned back to our institute..
Next morning i woke up late as usual and then got ready to go. Then i asked to all my friends to go with me.But all my friends were busy and they had some work to do..Then finally one of my friend was ready to go with me. So, me and my friend vaibhav went to meet my brother. We decided to meet at Forum mall. Vaibhav and i went to main road.There we took a bus to Forum mall. After reaching Forum, i called bhai that we reached here and where are you?? My brother was still in his hotel room..Why?? because he also woke up late :) We went into mall and then went to food court and there we were waiting for bhai and then after half an hour bhai reached there and then i met to my brother after a long time.
I introduced bhai with my friend and then we ate some snacks there.As i met my brother after a long time so, how it could be possible that i left my bro so easily. I did lots of shopping there. First we went into Adidas shop there i purchased 1 t-shirt then i purchased 2 more t-shirts.Then we decided to go at my cousin's home to meet her. So, we took lunch in a restaurant. There we took north Indian food after such a long time. Then we went to my cousin's home.
When we reached there we found her in the sleeping mode :) now,it was obvious after all she is our sister. We talked and teased each other then My di made tea for us and we enjoyed tea along with watching T.V...We talked a lot and at that time we decided that we will take dinner together and bhai will made aloo ghobhi for us. So, bhai and di both started preparation for dinner and me and vaibhav were watching T.V. as we were the younger than them.. :) Bhai made aloo gobhai and di made aloo tamater..After the combined effort they finally prepared aloo gobhi and aloo tamater..now it was my and vaibhav's turn to do something. So,we both were start doing something.. :) we prepared paratha and after half an hour by combined effort,finally we both prepared parathas. Then,we ate together and i couldn't explain that dinner was too delicious..and i ate such delicious food after a long time..This was all about my day. And day was really good and i enjoyed a lot. Then we both returned back to our institute..
Monday, October 15, 2007
My journey from meerut to CDAC
I have done my schooling as well as my graduation from my home town, Meerut. During the last year of my B.Tech., i filled the form of CST examination and after the written test. I have got selected for PG diploma course from Bangalore. When i came to know this i was very excited because this is the first time when i went outside from my home town for studies. So, i started prepration... Actually not exactly i started preprartion, my mumma and my younger sister started prepration. They made list of necessary things, mumma made laddoo and mathari for me. I did lots of shoping with papa, mumma and with my friend Isha. Papa booked air tickets for him and for me by SpiceJet. Our flight was scheduled on 4 august at 8.15 a.m. from Delhi. I started packing 3 days before i left Meerut. I packed all my clothes, footwears, all necessary things, Books and lots of things. My all prepration had been done till friday morning. I was excited but i was scared too. Because i didnt know what will happen..How could i live alone there??without my family. I slept late in the friday night and woke up early as we had to leave around 5 a.m. to reach Delhi at correct time. Papa called a taxi and finally i left home at 5.30 a.m.,saturday morning, 4 august. We reached airport at the right time. We took coffee and veg petti there and finally reached Bangalore around 1 p.m. Then we hired a taxi and reached to our destination CDAC, Electronics city. But saturday was a holiday..so, we had to move to my cousion's home situated at BTM. There i met with my other friends who also got seleted for CDAC and there i got a chance to meet my seniors too as my cousion also have done B.tech from my college and she was my seniour. At her house,i spend two days and enjoyed a lot then finally on monday morning me along with my friends went to CDAC and then i got enterd into CDAC on 6 august....
Sunday, October 7, 2007
missing home~~~
Home..my sweet home..i m missing my home very much. Watching t.v..with delicious sandwitch made by mumma and spend time with family members,long chats on phone and then Internet,enjoying music and fights with younger sister..i m missing all these things.. WHY??? because,this is first time when i stay far away from home for sake of my studies. This is essential part of my life to get good education and then work with a topmost software company... and for achieving this dream i am here in CDAC, Bangalore..and Bangalore is too far from my home town Meerut and it is not possible to go home in between the module. So, i am here from last 2 and the half months and from last 3-4 days i am missing my home. But this time is also crucial for my studies too because final exam will be held after few days and at this time i have to study a lot and inspite of studying i wasted my time.. :(
I couldn't understand what should i do..Sometimes it is very hard to convince our self for something..we know very well what is right and what is wrong...and what should we have to do and what should we haven't to do...But still,we did all that thing that is not good for us and We suffer a lot due to those decisions that we took emotionally..We live life and every time we had two phases..first one is attached emotionally with us and second one is attached practically..And this is up to us when we tilt to our emotional side and when we inclined towards our practical side.At this time my need is to be inclined towards practical side..but i am getting emotional and missing my family and home and this effects my studies very badly..But i have to come over all these difficulties and then have to prepare for my exams...
Now, i decided to concentrate on my studies and after giving my exams, i will go home and then i will enjoy there..so,my dear home i am missing you and soon i will visit you..
I couldn't understand what should i do..Sometimes it is very hard to convince our self for something..we know very well what is right and what is wrong...and what should we have to do and what should we haven't to do...But still,we did all that thing that is not good for us and We suffer a lot due to those decisions that we took emotionally..We live life and every time we had two phases..first one is attached emotionally with us and second one is attached practically..And this is up to us when we tilt to our emotional side and when we inclined towards our practical side.At this time my need is to be inclined towards practical side..but i am getting emotional and missing my family and home and this effects my studies very badly..But i have to come over all these difficulties and then have to prepare for my exams...
Now, i decided to concentrate on my studies and after giving my exams, i will go home and then i will enjoy there..so,my dear home i am missing you and soon i will visit you..
Nandi Hills...
4 th October 2007,Wednesday..I was in the mood of doing nothing :) I wanted to sleep whole day that's why i didn't take breakfast. At 11.00 a.m. somebody knocked my door and at that time i was alone in my hostel room..so, i had no choice except to leave my bed and to open the door. I saw my friend Garima standing there...she was in hurry and instructed me to get ready within 15 minutes and then we had to go...WHERE?? don't know...
I took 45 minutes and then i was ready to go anywhere :) . Then i came to know that all my friends were planning to go either Nandi Hills or Isckon temple. Actually,we didn't know where we will go??But we came out from NCST and discussed a lot about where should we go?? This was a big question and we took nearly 2 hours to find the answer of this question...mean time when this discussion was going on, i took my breakfast. Then, finally we all were agree to go Nandi Hills. We hired a taxi and we nine monsters(Ankur,Bhupi,Diksha,Garima,Shubham,Vaibhav,Nimisha,Sanjeev...and me) started our journey. We enjoyed music..and after a two hour journey our car stopped..Was this our destination??? Answer was NO...There was some problem occurred in car. We got down from car and enjoyed views around us. We took lots of snaps and kept memories in the form of photographs. Then,we reached Nandi Hills...there we saw beautiful flowers,views,garden...and there also we took snaps..then we took coffee and snacks..and after this coffee break. We moved ahead and then we saw an old temple..Temple was so beautiful there we saw few different type of architecture..We saw a place from where we saw sun set..that place is also known as suicide point..We captured lots of unforgettable moments there and came back..then we planned to go Isckon temple but we got late and temple closed ten minutes before we reached there..We were little disappointed..and finally we came back to Electronics city and we took our dinner near Infosys campus.There we ate together different types of dishes and enjoyed each and every moment that we spend together..Then after taking our dinner we came back to NCST with lots of memories..unforgettable moments that we spend with each other..
I took 45 minutes and then i was ready to go anywhere :) . Then i came to know that all my friends were planning to go either Nandi Hills or Isckon temple. Actually,we didn't know where we will go??But we came out from NCST and discussed a lot about where should we go?? This was a big question and we took nearly 2 hours to find the answer of this question...mean time when this discussion was going on, i took my breakfast. Then, finally we all were agree to go Nandi Hills. We hired a taxi and we nine monsters(Ankur,Bhupi,Diksha,Garima,Shubham,Vaibhav,Nimisha,Sanjeev...and me) started our journey. We enjoyed music..and after a two hour journey our car stopped..Was this our destination??? Answer was NO...There was some problem occurred in car. We got down from car and enjoyed views around us. We took lots of snaps and kept memories in the form of photographs. Then,we reached Nandi Hills...there we saw beautiful flowers,views,garden...and there also we took snaps..then we took coffee and snacks..and after this coffee break. We moved ahead and then we saw an old temple..Temple was so beautiful there we saw few different type of architecture..We saw a place from where we saw sun set..that place is also known as suicide point..We captured lots of unforgettable moments there and came back..then we planned to go Isckon temple but we got late and temple closed ten minutes before we reached there..We were little disappointed..and finally we came back to Electronics city and we took our dinner near Infosys campus.There we ate together different types of dishes and enjoyed each and every moment that we spend together..Then after taking our dinner we came back to NCST with lots of memories..unforgettable moments that we spend with each other..
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